What's your hurry?

It can kill you.

I am writing a memoiresque novel that draws on journal entries from the 1980s and 90s, making it so EFT Tapping with Ruby is now a place where communicating with my younger self happens. We help each other out.

Excerpt from The Jeanne Books

1992

I’m speeding down Broadway when a taxi door swings open in front of me. I barely have time to squeeze the brakes. From FULL SPEED to a FULL STOP.

Owwwch!!

I continue on, shaken, nursing my sore wrist, steering with only one hand. I am on my way to Tramps to hear Ron Sunshine & the Smoking Section play the bar crowd. I am late and it is killing me.

On 6th Avenue, an M6 bus pulls away from the curb and forces me out into the middle of the avenue. I can feel the UPS truck to my left. The UPS truck and the M6 are V-ing closer and closer together. I am between them, heading toward the point of their V.

This is when I find out that the taxi door left my brakes not working.

“My God!!! I am about to DIE!”

Reflections

My first reflection is GREAT JOB, GIRL!! Because I didn’t die. Somehow, I, or they, averted mangling me.

I put my bike away after that for a while. But being without my bike didn’t stop me from feeling the need to get from here to there fast.

So often in such a rush.

If I could change that, I would.

“…the idea of hurry-hurry as the most important objective of living,
is unquestionably the most dangerous enemy of joy.”
~ Herman Hesse

Tapping

I imagine myself in my 20s being in a body that is naturally more at ease.
Less hurry-hurry.

Letting go of hurry-hurry as the most important objective of living.
There is another way
a way other than ‘hurry-hurry’
a more present way
a more enjoyable way

Imagining my body giving way
to that way

Imagining being at ease
right where I am
just as I am
right here

Replacing hurry-hurry
with here-here

”Hear, hear!” to here-here!
Here-here!
Here-here!
Here-here!

Thanks for being here, seeing what happens.